Searching (2018)
My video artwork “Searching” responses the topics explored and discussed in my analysis of “Le Sommeil” by Salvador Dali above. My work critically explores and questions themes of sleep, unconsciousness, and identity.
When analyzing “Le Sommeil” and going through the concepts in psychoanalysis, the key term “identity” often comes up to my mind. Finding our unconscious side via methods like sleeping, dreaming or free association is always fundamental for surrealists to find their “real selves”. This brings me up to a number of questions: When am I really myself? In which state am I the truest me? The conscious me who appears most in usual situations? The conscious me in a specific identity or status? The unconscious me who is in deep sleep or in a dream? Or the one in between? What should be our real personality? Is it valid that we can only reach our truest selves in the unconscious condition?
With different dressing styles and facial expressions, different states of me are expressed. For example, when I am in a cheerful mood, a bad mood, a concentrated mode... etc. These images represent different sides of me, in different identities or status, such as daughter, friend, student... etc. Other than those, the first shot and the last few scenes of the video is me in sleeping states, symboling states where I am unconscious and unaware, like the condition of the sleeping head portrayed by Dali from “Le Sommeil”. I use this similar scenario as a reference, imitation, and response to “Le Sommeil”.
Various filters are applied during specific points of the video clip, which act as interruptions to the flow of the video, creating effects of alienation and estrangement like what Dali did on his work with a surrealism style. Alienation effect is also a technique often used by Bertolt Brecht, a German theatre practitioner. Instead of painting something in a strange and deformed way, I distort my footages with different effects that distort, elongate or impede curtain layers of the scene, making them appears like glitches and errors. Those implied effects act represents and symbolizes the conflicts between diverse sides, identities, and states of me, further questioning the theme of unconsciousness and identity.
As suggested by Andre Breton, surrealism proposes to reunify both our conscious and unconscious minds or realms of experience to a great extent that infuse the rational reality and the dream world. So perhaps combining all of states and faces of me can reach the truest me possible in a result. But still, the answer is still remaining questionable, dubious, unknown and vague. Further critical investigations are crucial to reaching the ultimate answer that may or may not exist.